My Blog, My Blog, Why Have You Forsaken Me?

Literally NOTHING has been going on for me to write anything about. I mean, Mr. Wells liked my chapel talk and so did Mrs. Pierce, so that's a relief. Mrs. Pierce even said that it was "adorable"-- fancy that!

The most horrible of horrible things that could have happened this weekend did: I have a cold. Sore throat, et al. (is that the proper way to use et. al? i wish it was if it isn't). It's mostly sore throat and sniffles. No runny nose, no need to blow my nose. It's just the damn sore throat that's got me down. It feels a little better than yesterday, and perhaps the fact that I keep waking up in the middle of the night is the main reason for my "head cold" feeling. I just hope it doesn't end up getting worse since I have to give a speech in front of the ENTIRE SCHOOL tomorrow!! out of everything that could happen, this is probably the worst thing.

I also have that big audition today, I probably won't get a scholarship. I just wish that I had done Youth Orchestra because then I would know more people and probably know more people at this audition. But maybe it's best that I come in mysteriously and no one knows who I am. I know that I'll KNOW people but it's the people I haven't seen in a long time and it's always SO SO SO awkward because it's like, "do you remember me?" except I obviously don't say that out loud, I just sit in the back while everyone else has fun!! I COULD make myself talk to everyone, even though i'd feel awkward, and it probably would end up not being awkward. WHATEVER. this is only going to be 2-3 hours out of my WHOLE LIFE and then I can go home.

SKIPPED

I skipped the past two days by accident. Grades are out but I have not looked at them, not planning to.

YuCK

I just sat around all day watching movies and tv shows. I should have done something, but I didn't. School starts again tomorrow, which just puts me closer to everything I'm stressing out about.

JAAAAAAAAAL

I'm hoping my chapel talk will be good and not lame. I'm having some trouble rewriting things in the best way, finding the right words and the right word order. I think it's going to be good. Just need some secondary opinions before I read it in front of teachers, then read it in front of the whole school (yikes). My music is going well too (for my audition).

I just feel like no one thinks I take playing cello or orchestra that seriously, though I do. I think some people have let on to mrs. baxter that they think I don't care about that, and I really don't appreciate it because it's hindered the opportunities I could have had. But whatever. It's only one month until the concert and then who cares, really.

Today

Today was very fun. I actually have a good idea for my chapel talk that I'm interested in writing about and it's going along swimmingly.

I had fun at Curtis's today, playing badminton and settlers of catan. Ha! I always forget how to play that game. Also, I never know the rules of anything sports related, but I hit pretty well in badminton.

We were talking about elementary school because Curtis, Katie and I all went to Nolan. So weird. I don't know, I just feel like because I haven't been close friends with anyone from elementary school since elementary school I kind of missed out on the whole "growing up together" thing. Like I can reminisce but still...

Plus going to college is so weird. Today we were talking about Halloween and Matt was like, "I think I'm going to just buy candy this year." And I was like "wait. we're going to be in college so you probably won't even do that..." It's weird to think about, and to keep forgetting about. It doesn't seem real that everyone will be far away soon. Even this summer I'm sure it'll be hard to get together with everyone working. HOPEFULLY I'LL HAVE A JOB SOON.

I'm very much excited about college, but i don't want to get so excited that I forget about spending time with my friends while there isn't a lot of time left. So weird to say goodbye to everybody.

Im glad I don't have to do it yet, but it's coming up. This year has gone by faster than any other. Even third quarter being the longest in history, this month is going to go by so fast with chapel talk, audition, may day, prom (well, technically in may...)... then it IS may... AP Exams, Senior exams (I'll undoubtedly have to take at least math), last day of school, class day, graduation... then hopefully working all summer. Need to get on that. NEED MONEY FOR SCHOOL!!!!!!!

SUPPPPPP

IN order to make sure that this blog is legit, ie 30 entries from diz month i'm going to have to do practice entries in the morning and then real entries in the afternoon.

so here's apractice entry .

i think i FINALLY thought up a good idea for my chapel talk.

HOPEFULLY I CAN WRITE IT AND IT'LL BE GOOD.

HERE IT IS!

what you've all been waiting for!!!!!

mah new blawg.

this blog is for me to write in, as the famed "Lemme Blog Dat" is for reblogging cool stuff and making jokes.

this is also for making jokes, but more serious jokes.

Obviously.

All posts below are from my secret interent vault that cannot be found! NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY!

-Lucy

BLOGGING EVERYDAY

I am going to blog everyday this month.

maybe.

So, today, not much went on. I did not work on my chapel talk. Bad news. I still don’t have the best idea I could have yet, I wish I would get a spark of inspiration to just write it.

I haven’t talked to anyone in a really long time, feelin’ kind of isolated.

Things that are worrying me right now:

1) Chapel Talk

2)Chapel Talk Invitations

3) May Day stuff

4) Art HIstory Test

5) Audition

6) memorizing for audition

7) meeting tomorrow

8) getting bad grades

9) getting a job!!!

many more things are keeping me awake at night. I am constantly worried. I think after these two weeks everything will be ok. After my chapel talk I’ll feel a lot better and I will only really have to worry about getting a job, which won’t be that hard. I just need to apply more places, I guess. I mean, I think I definitely will get a job.

I’m also getting worried about college. What if no one likes me? What if I don’t make any friends at all? What if everyone is way smarter than me and I can’t keep up? What if everyone is cooler than me!?