College

I found out where I'm living and who I'm living with next year! I got the dorm I wanted, and my roommate seems really cool and funny. I'm pretty sure it's going to be awesome.

Unluckily, the dorm is brand new and not even finished yet! So there's not enough info online for me to sufficiently obsess over what it looks like. There's only one of those architect pictures online. They don't even have it listed as a dorm yet on the resed site.

I went back on the site cause it was like "confirm your dorm" or something, and the place where it said where I was living is gone. So now I'm kind of worried about whether something is going to change about it...

IN other news, I think Sean Kingston sponsored the third season of the Hills because they mentioned him like 3 times so far, and there's a Sean Kingston behind Audrina's desk.

Summer So Far

Well, I started working at a certain sandwich shop about a month ago and that's been my whole summer. I went to one party at this burrito restaurant that was super lame because it was just a bunch of hipsters drinking pbr and listening to dubstep. I may be going to another one on Saturday, dubstep, hipsters and beer included, but this time dancing is involved.

Working is as fun as whoever else is working with me. Everyone is pretty cool and older than me and Jillian. The boss is kind of psycho sometimes and I think I almost had a panic attack and threw up the other day because I was so nervous he was going to get mad at me for making the sweet tea wrong or something. ANYWAY, pretty much what happens is that no customers come in and we joke around the whole time and eat stale cookies and go get ice cream.

no one else has a car except for me and jillian, so we are basically the moms. I drove the boss to the laundromat and to his house the other day. I also put a bandaid on Jamie and got Liam a milkshake. I don't mind doing these things; I think it's funny.

Besides working, I've been obsessively watching the Hills on Netflix. GOD. I LOVE this show. It's so mind numbingly boring/awesome. I find it fascinating. You can totally tell when they refilm stuff and/or when they edit things.

I went swimming on Saturday for the first time in 2 years or so, and that was fun. I never feel like going swimming, especially at my "community pool" full of soccer moms and little brats.

super fly

what if everyone at college is cooler than me?

what if no one likes me? what if i "go back into my shell." (as shannon calls it)

what if everyone has more money than me and i feel like i don't have many life experiences?

what i mean is that everyone will be "well traveled" and shit and i'll be like, tennessee, yall!

god, i feel like just right right now i'm understanding how stuff works in life.

I have two exams that I'm not prepared for tomorrow. I only have to take them because I have less than a B for this semester, so that means that I'm already on the edge. I just hope that I don't get my admissions rescinded. I don't think I have a chance of that happening, since all my grades aren't going down, just these two and i'm not even into them. like, it's not like i'm putting calculus and biology down as my main interests. I'm just really worried about that, because right now I know I'm not prepared and am hoping the exams aren't going to be as hard as I think they are. I have heard that Biology is not that hard.

Who cares?

My Blog, My Blog, Why Have You Forsaken Me?

Literally NOTHING has been going on for me to write anything about. I mean, Mr. Wells liked my chapel talk and so did Mrs. Pierce, so that's a relief. Mrs. Pierce even said that it was "adorable"-- fancy that!

The most horrible of horrible things that could have happened this weekend did: I have a cold. Sore throat, et al. (is that the proper way to use et. al? i wish it was if it isn't). It's mostly sore throat and sniffles. No runny nose, no need to blow my nose. It's just the damn sore throat that's got me down. It feels a little better than yesterday, and perhaps the fact that I keep waking up in the middle of the night is the main reason for my "head cold" feeling. I just hope it doesn't end up getting worse since I have to give a speech in front of the ENTIRE SCHOOL tomorrow!! out of everything that could happen, this is probably the worst thing.

I also have that big audition today, I probably won't get a scholarship. I just wish that I had done Youth Orchestra because then I would know more people and probably know more people at this audition. But maybe it's best that I come in mysteriously and no one knows who I am. I know that I'll KNOW people but it's the people I haven't seen in a long time and it's always SO SO SO awkward because it's like, "do you remember me?" except I obviously don't say that out loud, I just sit in the back while everyone else has fun!! I COULD make myself talk to everyone, even though i'd feel awkward, and it probably would end up not being awkward. WHATEVER. this is only going to be 2-3 hours out of my WHOLE LIFE and then I can go home.

SKIPPED

I skipped the past two days by accident. Grades are out but I have not looked at them, not planning to.

YuCK

I just sat around all day watching movies and tv shows. I should have done something, but I didn't. School starts again tomorrow, which just puts me closer to everything I'm stressing out about.

JAAAAAAAAAL

I'm hoping my chapel talk will be good and not lame. I'm having some trouble rewriting things in the best way, finding the right words and the right word order. I think it's going to be good. Just need some secondary opinions before I read it in front of teachers, then read it in front of the whole school (yikes). My music is going well too (for my audition).

I just feel like no one thinks I take playing cello or orchestra that seriously, though I do. I think some people have let on to mrs. baxter that they think I don't care about that, and I really don't appreciate it because it's hindered the opportunities I could have had. But whatever. It's only one month until the concert and then who cares, really.